You think you got this!?

For most of my Adult life I've said something along the lines of "I got this".... Many times!

I often wonder, Do I?

Some days I feel like I'm the only Adult in my group, other days I feel like I'm just a scared child. Most of the people I spend time with all have their ideas of what I should do or how to move forward...
Of course when I ask them how to or why, they have no answer.......

Every adult out in the world whether they actually say it or not they are all wandering around saying, "I GOT THIS!" They can be new to adulting or a seasoned veteran, guess what they have no fucking clue!

Seriously, you can ask them for help, you can do everything in you power, you still have no clue.

Every person on this planet has something they want, yet no one really knows how to get it.
I can feel every person older than me judging me, "you should work harder".... "You should go back to school".... "you should buy a house".....

Why because it was an option for you, Because you did it, you think everyone should do it!?!
Unfortunately there is no set way to grow up, every person has a different upbringing, has different struggles.

Each generation is different, each generation has its own struggles, and each generation has no clue how to help the next. If you see a kid out there struggling and you don't approve, guess what they got this just as much as you got this!

You want to give your advice.... fine but don't get mad when your advice doesn't work, or doesn't help!

So you think you "Got This", well guess what You Do!!
You are doing what you can to keep going, sometimes it isn't pretty, it isn't easy, and it isn't fun.
No matter what someone tells you, Things are different for everyone.

Keep Going, Keep Calm, Keep Fighting!!
You Got This!!!

Just some more ramblings of a disgruntled survivor!

What would life be without Dreams?

I keep finding myself ask this question, I feel like something is missing in my life and I try very hard to "Adult" but it doesn't feel good, without a dream life's boring and empty.

I've had many dreams growing up, One in particular has stuck with me and I'm still very determined to follow it, or at least see how far I can go with it. 

One of the main reasons I bought a drone was so that I could film awesome stuff and make kick ass films. 

I've found myself looking for ways to use it and new projects that I could do that would be fun. 

Today I was going to work on a project that I've been thinking about for some time, unfortunately it was too windy so I focused on finding Music for my future video. Thank god for awesome composers who post free music, I've found a lot of pieces and not just for this video but for future projects as well. 

Also I've found myself listening to the entire Star Wars Soundtrack non stop. To me it's very inspiring, I love the full sound it has. I'm a bit of a Star Wars nerd.... only a bit though.

I'm kind of on a soundtrack binge, Star Wars, Mamma Mia, Doctor Who, Rent, Lord of the Rings, The X-Files, Harry Potter, and a lot more. 

I don't know about everyone, but to me Music and Film go hand in hand. 

You can have a film without music and it feels empty and without emotion. You can have a film with too much music and it feels chaotic and noisy. Films with the right blend can help you connect with the characters, it leads you through the movie, you almost experience what the character does.  It's amazing what can happen!

I think thats why Film is such a passion of mine, I love the connection. 

Sorry for the long ramblings, looking back at this post I should have titled it, "What would life be without Music?" seeing as that's what I talked about the most. I love music, but for me it's a tool to help tell a story. 

Anyway I'm off, gonna load up my gear and head out, see what I can capture!

I got a video

Last time I flew my Drone I almost lost it...

Thankfully my camera was still recording, as my drone flew away due to strong winds the camera caught some awesome footage! Unfortunately I had the video settings on manual and I had them set low. The video is still "clear" it's just not the quality I would like to see.

I caught a lightning strike which caused a power outage.

If this ever happens again I'll make sure to get better footage....

I think I'm more upset about the quality of the video more than the fact I almost lost my drone.

It's been awhile....

I was hoping to update daily or weekly, unfortunately life got in the way of... Life.

It's been difficult!
I've had a job change, my car's in the shop, I'm required to go to school for work... not too excited about that.

Life!

Some fun change has also happened, I got a drone some time back and I've been flying a bit. I've been getting some good video from it.... However today I almost lost it.

So I knew it was gonna rain, I thought I had more time, one minute things are fine... The next my drone was blown away by strong wind. Thankfully everything worked out, I was able to find the drone and got it to land.

Word of Caution to those getting a drone, DON'T FLY IN STRONG WIND......
Not that I need to tell you, also don't fly until after you've had some time on the simulator. I let my friend fly it and he almost crashed into the Ground, a Fence, a Tree, Us... It was pretty interesting.


I'm gonna go through my footage and see just how scary it was, both todays fun and my friends first go.

Hopefully I'll get back into the blog, I really want to do this but sometime shit comes up and I forget.
I feel like if I did a daily/ weekly video blog I would remember better. However I'm better behind the camera than in front of it.

Some Assembly!!

My life seems like the ultimate in need of assembly, everyday is a new "adventure" in how do I adult...

Work, Bills, Family, and Relationships, at 27 life is supposed to start unfolding and "making sense"....   My life just seems to start getting more and more complicated and all I want to know is where the hell are my Instructions!?!

Now this is of course is my understanding of life, that once you reach a certain age everything starts to make sense.... Of course I know this to not actually be true, I know this from looking at my Parents and older siblings but I'm also still under an illusion that life hits a mark and it just "works".

My brain is the biggest jumble of what is and what isn't real life, more often than not I think on the real side but then I get hopelessly lost, like Alice falling down the rabbit hole.

I'm trying really hard to process all the thoughts in my head and phrase them in a way that makes sense not just to others but for myself... Hence this little project.

I'm going to attempt a kind of blog therapy, hopefully this will help my understanding of things and also help with some struggles....

It's kind of like the blog therapy John Watson was doing in Sherlock. of course my life in no where near as existing as his.

I feel like I made a ok start with this, now I just need to keep my progress going and this may help in the end... Or it could hinder me further but I'm staying optimistic about this, for now.